Sunday, February 8, 2009

I'm breaking the rules!

So, I will be breaking the rules on the blog. The "rules" say you shouldn't give your heart to a child you can't adopt. But I can't help myself. I love her. I realized today that I can let go of Eric saying "yes" to adopting her. It's the part where I am supposed to let go of loving her so much that I can't do. I. Just. Can't.

Until she has another family, I will love her with all of the mommy love that God has given me for her. She will be my heart daughter. I will pray extra prayers of protection around her. And you know what? I might just send her care packages as well!

The only person that might be "punished" for me loving her, is me. I just don't feel like I have any choice other than to love her, and mourn her when I lose her.

I got new pics of her today. She is so beautiful to me. I just want to scoop her up and kiss those lips! Actually, I day dream about doing just that several times a day. She has on my kids' old clothes. The shirt is (I think) a 3t shirt of Taevy's, and the shorts are 18m size shorts that were Bright's. Those were my favorite shorts for Bright. Now...she is cute enough to pull off the tom boy look, but seriously! The girl needs some girly clothes! I think I will have to take care of that when the next family travels.

3 comments:

  1. Doesn't love frequently break the rules? ;) She is beautiful, precious, gorgeous- those eyes! Thanks for sharing her photos.

    A

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  2. Sis you know Mia is outgrowing all her clothes right?!?!?! lol You are welcome to any you would like to take to her :) And since some are hand me downs from Taevy it all works out well in a nic eil circle lol

    Nic

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  3. Hey ladies. So...this is embarressing but I just noticed you all had left comments! I didn't have the setting right to have comments delivered to my email address, so I didn't know! A, you are so awesome! N, save those clothes! BTW, just invited others to read this blog, but still keeping it pretty private.

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